A month has come and gone....

Letter to Asher:

Oh, sweet Asher. I can't believe you have been gone for a month now. Leading up to today has been really hard for me; there are days where it takes all the strength and courage I have to keep a smile on my face. I just miss you and want you back. We all do. I made your memory box a couple of days ago and I was literally doing a "photo shoot" with it. It turned out beautiful, though. I know you would be so proud!! And I am looking forward to looking at it every day. Any chance that I can have a memory of you is one that I will take.

Any chance to think about you and reminisce are moments I love. I love hearing your name. I love looking at the few photos we have of you. I love talking about you. I love to just go sit and your nursery and think of you. Sometimes it makes me sad, but most of the time it really does make me happy and brings me joy. Asher, you have been such a blessing to me and our family. Our faith and perseverance have grown stronger because of you. I no longer fear death because of you. You have brought me closer to our Heavenly Father in more ways than I can ever imagine. When you passed, I turned to the Scriptures and God's words became ALIVE!!! They have never jumped out at me the way they do now. They have so much more meaning to me. I know for me and your father, they have brought us hope and comfort. Jesus is directly telling us all the things we need to hear through the Scriptures. He instantly knows exactly where to take us in His word--isn't that just wonderful? So, thank you sweet little boy of mine!

 I hope your first month in Heaven has been nothing short of perfection :) I can just imagine you dancing and singing, always a smile on your face. I imagine you sitting on your great grandfathers' and great grandmothers' laps and listening to their stories. Knowing that you will only know happiness, joy & love makes my heart smile. It doesn't keep me from missing you, but it does bring me comfort. Give everyone hugs and kisses from me, especially Jesus!

Love you sweet boy,

Mommy

Everything about you was and is perfect.

Your great-grandmother made you booties to wear.

Just to see this everyday, will bring me happiness!

 Your big brother, Ethan, is a hoot. He's bossing your Lola in this photo :)

 And, they're off! Sent with extra TLC.

We love you to Heaven and back, Asher!